I did my part. I hope my absence gives you peace that my love couldn’t

My dearest daughters,

As I write these words, I want you to know that every choice I’ve made, every boundary I’ve set, has come from a place of deep love and care for you. I have tried to be there for you in all the ways I knew how, even though sometimes it may have felt like I was distant or harsh. There were times I couldn’t be the mother you might have wanted me to be, yet I did everything within my strength and understanding to offer you love and stability, hoping that it would help you build strong, resilient hearts.

But now, as I take a step back, I realize that sometimes, love means allowing you to find your peace on your own terms, even if it means I am not in every part of that journey. It’s hard for me to say this because my love for you is so deep, so constant that stepping back feels almost unnatural. Yet, there comes a point when I understand that my presence, with all my worries and hopes, may not offer the quiet you seek.

One day, you may see that love isn’t always loud or close; it can be quiet, from afar, in moments of absence as well as presence. My hope is that this distance will give you room to breathe, to find yourselves without feeling my presence or my expectations so heavily. Perhaps, in my absence, you will come to see all the ways I tried to be there for you, even when it didn’t feel enough. I pray that this space I’m leaving will bring you clarity, the kind that only comes when you’re given the chance to truly know yourselves, independent of me.

One day, I hope you will understand why I chose to step back—not because my love wasn’t enough – but because my greatest hope is for you to feel peace and freedom. And if that peace comes more easily without me nearby, then I have done my part to the best of my knowledge. I am always here in spirit, carrying you in my heart. Know that my love never leaves, even if my presence does.

One day, my loves, I hope you will understand my journey ❤️